We can all certainly influence our future. We can set our intentions, make plans, take action. We can decide to do nothing – because we cannot predict the outcome. We can allow fear to hold us hostage – in jobs that suck our souls away, in relationships that cause our hearts to wither, in addictions that dull our pain, in habits that no longer serve us.
I could no longer do the things I should. The “should” was slowly drowning me, cutting me off from my spirit, gasping for air, and longing to feel anything except disappointment, bitterness, and obligation. I needed to “walk the earth”, as my youngest sister says. I needed to love and feel loved, I needed to breathe easy. I needed to feel supported, uplifted, in touch with my spirit. I needed to feel alive!